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Okayy,Hm. Last Monday my boy was having a bad high fever. And at first I thought it just a fever Yang biasa2 tu. Than,malam isnin tu dia kata ' I might not coming to school' than aku tros rasa down ,rasa tak semangat,rasa yang fahmi ni tak Kesian kat aku. Hm, And I KNOW I AM SELFISH AND ONLY THINKIN ONLY ABOUT MY HAPPINESS AND FEELINGS.HMM.nak.buat macam mana?? Aku dah terbiasa kacau dia,tegur dia,lalu depan kelas dia,pandang dia,tengok dia blajar dari luar kelas dia. ( macam lelaki gatal en) Hm. Even,dia tak gila stalk macam aku. Even dia tak se excited aku time berjumpa. I still be sabarr. And to be honest,I am ashamed with this action I've done. Nampak terhegeh hegeh sangat. Okayy. What ever you wanna say. True Im sucks! Hmm. And that Monday night I cry,and begging him to come tomorrow. :( tak tahu malu en?? Actually I've begging him a lot of time. Yes I am ashamed. Di hati saya ni saya malu. Kamu nampak saya macam tak tahu malu by the outside. But inside I feel like Shit. :( I love him so much. :'( and I hate it. Erghh,hmm. And after I call and begging. He said that he will coming on Monday. So,I feel a bit alright and Okayy and worried. And keesokan harinya dia Datang. And he looks great. Look healthy energetic but actually he is not Nia!!! You so stupid! Hmm. Petang tu dia kata badan dia panas sangat. Sian dia. :( kejamnyee saya. Kalau tak pakse dia Datang mesti he gonna be fine.Hm. and petang tu mal dia bawak g klinik the doctor said he suspects that my boy having dengii. :'( and he took some test blood that day. And requested to take it again on Wednesday. Yes. Wednesday= today. Hm. He took another blood test and the doctor said my sayang terlebih sedikit darah putih. Hm. But the doctor said my boy gonna be just fine. :/ hmm. This week I feel so sad,down,lonely,sorrow,worry,missing,useless and so onn.. I can't do nothing for him. It's was the biggest sad feelings. I can't do anything for him. :( i am bad gf. And I feel like talking to the moon right now. :(